i had a midterm today... i don't think i did so well, curses to writing 39b... i have another midterm tomorrow... that one i really have to study for... i just wanted to write before i started studying however..

i woke up this morning in tears... again... this isn't the only time this past year that this has happened... all i remember is that right before i woke up, i saw a picture in my dream... just imagine this picture giving off a yellowish color... it kind of looked like it was tinted a golden color... the picture was a group picture... the 25a group was there (except odiee), the san leon girls, gp and myself... there could have been more in the picture but i can't remember...

the golden tint gave it a feeling of oldness... like it was taken at the ages we are now, but viewed at a future time... years, even decades later... we all looked so happy... i ended up sitting up in my bed after i saw that in my dream... and i started tearing...

i can't explain it... i should be really happy today too... the liwanag meeting was a success, and i got the outreach position next year for puso... but in the back of mind i think i'm sad because i know next year won't be the same... i understand this quote now: "change always involves risk, and the prospect of reward"

hopefully next year feels the same as this year... or maybe even better... i just hate the fact that some people aren't going to be here next year, and there's nothing that i can do about it... their time is up... and that quote about change applies to them the most...