i have a lot things running through my mind... it's keeping me pretty agitated, like i drank coffee or something... i can't seem to shake it, and it seems like retreating is the best way to deal with things, although i can't really do that cause i have "responsibilities." at least i'm not to the point where i want to run away for a day, cause i have done that before but have learned that you just come back dealing with the same crap plus more.

the year is almost ending and i'm... i don't really know what i am right now... kinda sad, happy, mad... i can't explain it... it's just a lot of crap... shiet!

plus i'm still kinda ticked off about something... well more like annoyed and ticked off... i don't know, something along those lines. someone want to help me find a ...... i can put it to use and then everything will be okay... shit... i hate this!!!