A sudden urge for me to blog has just hit me, at 3:16am in the morning. It's one of those moments where you don't even want to think anymore but merely let the words that are running through your head run rampant on the screen, allowing your stream of consciousness to flow out.
However, I don't think that will happen tonight since I'm thinking of things that shouldn't really be said on a blog. But I do however want to mention the state in which I'm feeling right now. It's in a good state. Which now by saying that I probably jinxed it, but oh well. I do feel good, I don't know how long I can keep saying that considering the lack of sleep I've been getting the last couple of weeks, but hey, I feel pumped up for the Lord, Amen! Amen!
And now I'm just waiting for that one thing to set me off and that will bring me spiraling down my path with Him. I thank Him for the crosses though, cause without them I wouldn't have learned and grown. And yea, I don't know how this blog got into this, I guess I just felt really good inside that I felt the need to share, which in some respects, it's a good thing, but I guess for others who aren't having such a "feel good state" moment, they probably don't want to hear it, which by now I should have probably already gave a warning to those that aren't feeling really good that I would be writing about it. Uh huh...
Have you ever considered what could be out there, in our solar system, and outside of our solar system? I always have... I looked up tonight at the sky, and saw the moon. The moon that gives us our waves, and brings light to our darkness at night. Think of it, the possibilties out there in our solar system. It's just an awesome thought for me...
And to continue on babbling cause unfortunately I don't feel compelled to stop until I get at least ten short paragraphs in this blog... although I am tired... a lot of things have been going on with me lately. Things that only a couple of years ago I would have questioned and would broke down crying due to lack of understanding. But now, luckily, I've managed to learn how to trust, and let things be the way things are meant to be.
Whatever transformation I went through this summer was an awesome one. Whatever I did, or said, or what someone said or did for me, really changed something within me, and has allowed me to be, I guess you could say a little more daring, but with more responsibilty than I've had before. I've finally found something that I want to pursue later on in life, and I guess you could say that it gave me meaning to go on in life. Not that I would ever take my own life, grant it I've never tried, but have thought about it, this new found destination gave me the strength, the courage, and the will power to continue to fight on, and not lose the fight I was waging within my self the last two years.
Okay now I'm done, cause I feel like I don't even think the words I'm writing is even true, cause frankly I don't want to go back and read it... I'll just write a disclaimer in my next blog or something.
Yes, random stream of diliriousness... well kinda, cause at least I wasn't laughing when I was writing...
However, I don't think that will happen tonight since I'm thinking of things that shouldn't really be said on a blog. But I do however want to mention the state in which I'm feeling right now. It's in a good state. Which now by saying that I probably jinxed it, but oh well. I do feel good, I don't know how long I can keep saying that considering the lack of sleep I've been getting the last couple of weeks, but hey, I feel pumped up for the Lord, Amen! Amen!
And now I'm just waiting for that one thing to set me off and that will bring me spiraling down my path with Him. I thank Him for the crosses though, cause without them I wouldn't have learned and grown. And yea, I don't know how this blog got into this, I guess I just felt really good inside that I felt the need to share, which in some respects, it's a good thing, but I guess for others who aren't having such a "feel good state" moment, they probably don't want to hear it, which by now I should have probably already gave a warning to those that aren't feeling really good that I would be writing about it. Uh huh...
Have you ever considered what could be out there, in our solar system, and outside of our solar system? I always have... I looked up tonight at the sky, and saw the moon. The moon that gives us our waves, and brings light to our darkness at night. Think of it, the possibilties out there in our solar system. It's just an awesome thought for me...
And to continue on babbling cause unfortunately I don't feel compelled to stop until I get at least ten short paragraphs in this blog... although I am tired... a lot of things have been going on with me lately. Things that only a couple of years ago I would have questioned and would broke down crying due to lack of understanding. But now, luckily, I've managed to learn how to trust, and let things be the way things are meant to be.
Whatever transformation I went through this summer was an awesome one. Whatever I did, or said, or what someone said or did for me, really changed something within me, and has allowed me to be, I guess you could say a little more daring, but with more responsibilty than I've had before. I've finally found something that I want to pursue later on in life, and I guess you could say that it gave me meaning to go on in life. Not that I would ever take my own life, grant it I've never tried, but have thought about it, this new found destination gave me the strength, the courage, and the will power to continue to fight on, and not lose the fight I was waging within my self the last two years.
Okay now I'm done, cause I feel like I don't even think the words I'm writing is even true, cause frankly I don't want to go back and read it... I'll just write a disclaimer in my next blog or something.
Yes, random stream of diliriousness... well kinda, cause at least I wasn't laughing when I was writing...
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