a friend asked me last night if i was okay... i said i was... but when i thought more about it today, i realized that i'm not.

everything is building up inside me right now... i'm scared it'll be unleashed when i'm least expecting it and the downhill battle will start.

i welcome these crosses though, if it is in God's plan... my problem is is that i don't know how to deal with it.

"Lord, [I] pray not for a lighter load but for stronger shoulders."

prayers please.