Aren't friends the greatest? They can teach you so much about so many things. For example, smoking... not that I would ever try something like that (and blog about it) but it's interesting how some friends would do that. But friends are the greatest!!!
I went to San Diego today, it was really relaxing and I learned something from a friend =). I really needed the trip though, and for the first time I wasn't dreading coming back to Irvine. I was actually embracing the fact that I was going to be coming back to so much stuff. I'm ready to face the world, well, sorta and probably only for tonight. I hope this feeling stays with me for a while. It's such an awesome feeling, and I haven't felt this way in quite a while.
I need to talk to my older sister. I feel really bad about the conversation we had on Saturday. It didn't end very well and now I'm regretting all the things I said. I'm kinda scared to call her though... the things she said really got to me though, and in a way I feel like what she was saying was true, but I don't do it on purpose, or even realize that I'm doing something wrong in the first place, so I feel really bad cause I said some things that I shouldn't have which got her pissed even more. Then the whole night I couldn't focus which sucked cause I was 25A hanging out and Fran, Angie, and Nimz were there talking about a skit for the spirit rally and all I could do was pace and worry and get overwhelmed with everything I had to do, plus remember what my sister had said. I sucked last night, I ended up going home and crying in car for like 10 minutes, and then going into my apartment and crying myself to sleep. So depressing, so I decided to go to San Diego today as a break from it all.
Life if can be so... challenging, and with me feeling so distant from Him, I feel like all the crosses He's been giving me lately have just been pushing me further and further away from Him; I'm not up for the challenge. And so I just get frustrated even more. I was talking to a friend who asked me if I was okay (I had told him that I had to gone to SD to take a break because I was feeling stressed) and I gave him this response through AIM: "I've just really felt overwhelmed with liwanag stuff, PUSO stuff, school stuff, family, my faith, and matters of the heart." So if I'm ever acting weird it's either due to one of the things I mentioned, or a combination of certain ones.
Well I've written a lot today... I'm gonna go, it's late/early... whichever. Good night/ good morning to all!!!
I went to San Diego today, it was really relaxing and I learned something from a friend =). I really needed the trip though, and for the first time I wasn't dreading coming back to Irvine. I was actually embracing the fact that I was going to be coming back to so much stuff. I'm ready to face the world, well, sorta and probably only for tonight. I hope this feeling stays with me for a while. It's such an awesome feeling, and I haven't felt this way in quite a while.
I need to talk to my older sister. I feel really bad about the conversation we had on Saturday. It didn't end very well and now I'm regretting all the things I said. I'm kinda scared to call her though... the things she said really got to me though, and in a way I feel like what she was saying was true, but I don't do it on purpose, or even realize that I'm doing something wrong in the first place, so I feel really bad cause I said some things that I shouldn't have which got her pissed even more. Then the whole night I couldn't focus which sucked cause I was 25A hanging out and Fran, Angie, and Nimz were there talking about a skit for the spirit rally and all I could do was pace and worry and get overwhelmed with everything I had to do, plus remember what my sister had said. I sucked last night, I ended up going home and crying in car for like 10 minutes, and then going into my apartment and crying myself to sleep. So depressing, so I decided to go to San Diego today as a break from it all.
Life if can be so... challenging, and with me feeling so distant from Him, I feel like all the crosses He's been giving me lately have just been pushing me further and further away from Him; I'm not up for the challenge. And so I just get frustrated even more. I was talking to a friend who asked me if I was okay (I had told him that I had to gone to SD to take a break because I was feeling stressed) and I gave him this response through AIM: "I've just really felt overwhelmed with liwanag stuff, PUSO stuff, school stuff, family, my faith, and matters of the heart." So if I'm ever acting weird it's either due to one of the things I mentioned, or a combination of certain ones.
Well I've written a lot today... I'm gonna go, it's late/early... whichever. Good night/ good morning to all!!!
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