My grandma's really sick... I feel so bad that she is! I'm scared... I was in the hospital yesterday and the idea of death hit me and made me tear! My grandma handed me her wallet in which she kept all her cards... I was suppose to get her Medical and Medicare cards out... and in the process I saw my picture in there... it was a passport picture, one that I took when I was leaving the Philippines... the weird thing was, it was the only picture in there... seeing my picture was what hit me... my grandma practically raised me when I was still in P.I. and with her being sick... I started thinking about her dying... I know it's a sad thing to think about, but that's what I thought of... and that's when the realization of death totally hit me...

Yup! Irene's still mad. I went to the yearbook Christmas party today... hm... kinda weird not talking to Irene, if the circumstances were different I probably would have gone to the party with her and JR... truthfully, I miss talking to her... but then again I've gotten closer to Shieng because of this whole thing... I don't know... but if she needs the time, then I'll give it to her... Carolina even knows now... it was funny cause she "triple doggie dared" me... is that even how you say it? =) Dinah knows that the person I like has seven letters in their name... and that they graduated from Morse and now go to UCI... hm... she can't figure it out though.. cause she doesn't know many of the guys that go to Irvine... haha... it's just funny listening to her try to figure it out...

Dinah.. if you really want to know... you've got to wait till I'm ready to tell you.. okay? Hey maybe if we played truth or dare or something... then maybe you might be able to get it out of me... but until then.. mums the word...