So I got up at 2 something this morning (thanks Angie) and ended up... blogging. I don't even know why I'm awake. I'm not even doing anything productive!

I really miss my older sister... not that I don't see her, it's just that reading her blog and reading that she feels lost (like the rest of us) gives me a heavy heart. Growing up we experienced everything together... if one of us got in trouble, so did the other... if we found something funny we would laugh till it hurt... if we ever needed money we would turn to each other (more on my part than on hers)... if we ever got mad at each other things would be okay five minutes later... we experienced our growing pains together, and now that I'm away at school I really MISS her!!! My big sis has done a lot for me and I feel bad that we don't get to see or talk to each other as often. I'm sorry that I act like an ass to her sometimes... I just feel that ever since two summers ago, she's on the defense with everyone... even with me. And it hurts me when I see her like that...

I'm about ready to delete what I have just written above... aaahhh!!! I've just annoyed myself... great! okay... whatever... I believe that there is something SERIOUSLY wrong with me!!!!