i wish i had a longer childhood. i mean, you're only a kid for what, 12 years out of your whole entire life? and then once you hit your "teens" you're now considered to be, well, a teen, and not act like a kid anymore. or i wish that i hadn't moved around so much growing up. being able to settle in a school, when i was younger, longer than a year and a half.

the longest school i had ever stayed at was my high school: four years. four years... which i guess is good compared to the other schools i attended, but high school was a time when everyone had their friends established already, and i felt like i had to try extra hard to make and keep the friends i had.

i thought i had a pretty good set of friends before graduating from high school. i was wrong however; we only started hanging out starting our senior year in high school, because we were all in yearbook together, but after all the drama we were some how able to create, our friendships now are nothing more than on an acquantance level. this really makes me sad, cause i hear about all the people i've been blessed to have gotten to know these past 2+ years, and they've known some of their friends since elementary school.

::sigh:: i only write this, cause, when all is said and done in the end of my college career, i won't have any friends to go back to in san diego. and the friends here, well, that part, that future has yet to be determined, but i can only imagine that the type of friendships i have now, with the people i see on a daily basis, and those that i use to see on a daily basis, the friendships that they've had since elementary school, will eventually take over the brief time we've shared together, and the result of which will just be the memories i keep to myself.

and as i sit here in nacs, i just think of the time i have left in this dang expensive institution of ours, and wonder about who i'll actually still have contact with once i graduate. ::sigh::