i'm really frustrated right now on how things are going. i'm confused on what to think about this situation and how to handle things. it's such a challenge trying to deal with it cause i don't know what else to say that could change things... ::sigh:: i guess, as reg said, that maybe that's why i've been feeling "sane," to deal with all the crazyness around me. ::argh:: at least talking to people helps me try to figure stuff out... cause i really don't know what to do, all i can really do i guess is just hope for the best, and which ever way things happen are the ways things are meant to be.
i had a very unproductive day today. i was at home being a bum till about 7 when i needed to get ready to go to a leader meeting for liwanag. productive meeting, i was tired for some reason though. ate at in and out with jason, leo, reg, and gp afterwards. and then headed back to the apartment and just chilled and talk with reg, nimz, and april till like 4. fun bonding times. and now, i'm here... blogging, at like 5 in the morning cause so many things are on my mind. ::sigh::
i'm headed home for san diego soon, which i know will be fun cause i'll be with family, but at the same time, i'd feel so disconnected from everyone. it's a really weird feeling that i can't really explain. i guess you could say that even though i'm with family, that i'd also like to be with my liwanag family. i feel like i go through withdrawl every break, which is probably because i do... haha... but really though, i'm totally cut off from irvine/liwanag stuff in san diego, except through the phone maybe, but even with that i have to explain to my parents who's calling me and stuff. which sucks, cause i would like to have phone calls from people without having my parents question who i'm talking to.
but let the countdown to lockdown begin... dang... and i have so much to think about that it's driving me crazy, cause like i said, i really don't know what to do.
happy holidays everyone... hope all is going well with all of you!
oh, by the by, KATHEE here is your shout out mah sistah! i know i didn't quote you, but i'm sleepy right now and i can't really think of anything right now. =) you're so awesome though, we really need to talk more often!
alrighty, peace out y'll
i had a very unproductive day today. i was at home being a bum till about 7 when i needed to get ready to go to a leader meeting for liwanag. productive meeting, i was tired for some reason though. ate at in and out with jason, leo, reg, and gp afterwards. and then headed back to the apartment and just chilled and talk with reg, nimz, and april till like 4. fun bonding times. and now, i'm here... blogging, at like 5 in the morning cause so many things are on my mind. ::sigh::
i'm headed home for san diego soon, which i know will be fun cause i'll be with family, but at the same time, i'd feel so disconnected from everyone. it's a really weird feeling that i can't really explain. i guess you could say that even though i'm with family, that i'd also like to be with my liwanag family. i feel like i go through withdrawl every break, which is probably because i do... haha... but really though, i'm totally cut off from irvine/liwanag stuff in san diego, except through the phone maybe, but even with that i have to explain to my parents who's calling me and stuff. which sucks, cause i would like to have phone calls from people without having my parents question who i'm talking to.
but let the countdown to lockdown begin... dang... and i have so much to think about that it's driving me crazy, cause like i said, i really don't know what to do.
happy holidays everyone... hope all is going well with all of you!
oh, by the by, KATHEE here is your shout out mah sistah! i know i didn't quote you, but i'm sleepy right now and i can't really think of anything right now. =) you're so awesome though, we really need to talk more often!
alrighty, peace out y'll
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