How does someone know, at the age of, lets say 26, that they want to be with someone for the rest of their life?

Or at the age of 18, decide that you want to major in biology at school because you want to end up in med school and become a doctor and do that as their lifelong career choice? How do you know that that's what you really want to do? What if you get all the way to med school and realize that you don't really want to be a doctor? What then?

I guess it's just really hard for me to believe that people can choose one thing that will ultimately be with them for the rest of their lives. What if they change their mind? Fall out of love?

I hate the fact that I grew up moving all the time. It was one of those things that would allow me to start over every six months, or every other year. I feel like it wasn't a healthy way to grow up cause that's how I feel like life should be. If you're doing something, and it's not that fun/exciting anymore...move on. Do something different. How's that suppose to work in relationships?!

It's frustrating. Damn you commitment issues!!!

I wonder if anyone ever reads this anymore. I kind of lost track of blogger after my computer died on me and I was left with internet via my phone and so it was harder to look at them.

It's interesting though, looking back at what I wrote. This, the random goings ons in my head, is accessible on the internet. Who in the hell would really care about what I had to say anyway? It's funny though, because before facebook status updates and twitter got popular, and whatever other social media outlets are out there now, blogs and xangas use to be the "it. This is how people communicated and kept up with everyone's lives. Do people still do that? Write and post entries?

I would suspect that the number are not as many as before, but I could be totally off on that assumption and maybe the only person that really stopped posting was me.

Anyway, just wanted to give this thing an update. I don't know if this counts as much of an update, but wateves.

Oh, on a side note, however, and I don't know how much crap I'm gonna get about this, considering that I have many friends that are Lakers fans, I was ecstatic to see them lose tonight. Why? Who knows, I'm just not a Laker fan. Go Celtics!! =P

PS I dare all them basketball fans to give up basketball for Lent...especially the die-hard bball fans.

In an attempt to make a major change in my life, I came up short. Not on my end, however, but on the people that I put my trust in. It was an interesting journey non-the less... I hope that in future endeavors that I am able to truly find what I'm looking for.

Just a couple of things...

1) I really really enjoyed this past weekend =D

2) Awesome job to Audience of One and to Mater Dei on their bazaar

hmmm... I guess it really was a 'couple'

I miss everyone. =(

Guess what?! I recently learned about proxy servers that allow you to get around your schools 'blocked' content... and lo and behold... I am blogging, BLOGGING... at WORK! hahahah I could never access blogger until I found out about them proxy servers... so thank you to those that introduced me to it =D

Well... I was asked to blog. So here it is. I honestly don't remember the last time I blogged. I don't really know what to blog about.

::sigh:: ok, I can't think of anything to write. Bleh... I'll try again tomorrow.

This thing is in serious need of an update.

But where to begin...

2008 has been some year so far. It's different. More adult like, but at the same time, not really. I've been lacking a balance and it's been hard trying to find one.

Overall though, I can't complain.

Sorry, I know that wasn't much of an update... but there ya have it.

now that i've been back home for a couple of months, life has been a little more busy than my old schedule of sleeping late, waking up late, doing nothing and then going to wok for a couple of hours.

i actually had to buy a planner!! which i'm actually using!! the last time i even had one was back in 2005... my last year of school. =0

with holy week right around the corner, i've spent a good part of my mornings and evenings at church. mass in the morning, and then meetings and/or practices at night. it's fun though. i haven't felt like "this" in a while when it comes to serving, and it's a good feeling. i'm really excited to be a part of things.

sorry about this post. i'm hyped on coffee, but i feel mellow right now... i guess that's why this blog is the way it is. ::sigh::

oh!! in other news, i'm going to disneyland tomorrow!! i'm helping chaperone for joyce's choir kiddos. so yay!! i get to go back to disneyland =D

k, i think i'm done. peaces!

our house has gone through a lot of remodeling since we first moved in back in '96... our kitchen now has a modern look to it, and it makes my mom happy, so yay for a new kitchen =D (random thought, i know)

so back in august last year, as i was packing up all my stuff from shawshank i made a mental list of things regarding the times i would go back to irvine and visit. it started off simple, with something like, 'i'll come visit when there's benefit concert, winter retreat, spirit rally, and banquet,' you know the big things that liwanag does.

and then i decided sometime later that i'd try to visit at least once a month. and so you're probably wondering, 'what the hell are you getting at?' hahah, honestly, i don't really know... i was just thinking and realized that the last time i really saw anyone from up there was on the 2nd of february. it's been a whole month!! it's kinda weird. haha, that's all.

anyway... i'm happy. and also tired. =P but overall, happy.

peaces.

just a jumble of thoughts going through my head right now.

my brother is sick. he threw up in the daycare room earlier.

i have coffee in my system =D

i left work early today after a frantic call from mother saying that little bro was pale and i needed to take him the hospital... that didn't happen.

let the studying begin.

i miss liwanag =(

this Lenten season has been a change from the previous Lenten seasons that I experienced in irvine. it's nice... it's great actually.

prayers for everyone that needs them.

stupid rain has put a halt to my running =(

the circle journal thing is confusing me... hahah.. sorry i'm not attempting to process the posts and e-mails.

k, i'm done.

happy 3rd week of lent =)

sorry about my last post kathee... i'll try to translate for you (later). =D but no, it's not dido. hahaha.

Salamat.

Kung ito man ang huling awiting aawitin
Nais kong malaman mong ika’y bahagi na ng buhay ko
At kung may huling sasabihin
Nais kong sambitin, nilagyan mo ng kulay ang mundo

Kasama kitang lumuha
Dahil sa yo ako’y may pag-asa

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat

Sana’y iyong marinig, tibok ng damdamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin, ang awitin ko’y iyong dinggin
At kung marinig ang panalangin
Lagi kang naroroon, humiling ng pagkakataon

Masabi ko sa yo ng harapan
Kung gaano kita kailangan

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat

Ito na ang pagkakataon
Walang masayang na panahon
Mananatili ka sa puso ko kailanman
Para sa yo ako’y lalaban, ako’y lalaban

Ang awiting ito’y para sa yo
At kung maubos ang tinig, di magsisisi
Dahil iyong narinig mula sa labi ko
Salamat, salamat

I don't know if anyone really reads this anymore, but today is:

February 11, 2008... the 150th commemoration of the Blessed Virgin Mary appearing to Bernadette at Lourdes. It is what the church now calls, World Day of the Sick. For those of you that don't know the story of Lourdes and of Saint Bernadette... read up, it's an interesting story. =)

How do I come by this bit of information? I went to mass this morning and that's what the priest was talking about. Kathee and I were once family leaders in the St. Bernadette family, so the story was familiar and it kept my focus.

Anyway... that's all. Prayers for all the sick around the world today.