dang... i don't know whats been going on with me lately... i guess tonight just really made me realize that i need to get over it... and just let it go and let God. i realized tonight while talking to a friend that things are the way things are for a reason, and that i should just trust that He won't let me go down the wrong path. i need to be strong... and whatever thats been bothering me lately will only get harder harder to deal with unless i start the process of trying to point it in the right direction... it all starts with me.

::sigh::

::argh::

and for the last time, cause i should really stop saying cause i can't even explain why i say i am, I SUCK! alright, i got it out of my system... ::sigh:: my blogs need to be more happy... and i need to stop this shtuff, and grow up... okay, i've stopped making sense.

::sigh:: i won't post anymore unless it's good... i'm outta here!